Wednesday, April 29, 2009
aloha! =)today went for PT session again.
the group of year one turning up was a great sign as usual.
and of course the graduates. haha. still have 4 plus special guest appearance from benji.
it was fun i would say. block catching makes me crawl like crazy. me and aaron turn it into infiltration game instead.
This few days have a hell lots of thoughts about my future going through my mind. what if i do this or that. but shit it, finally giving up hope on thinking what the future might hold. like what shan have said, just do what my heart tells me to. end up i have sent in my application. don't know if they will shorlist me yet. =
baby got a funny problem with her ears. consequences of scratching too much! aiyo. thats such a silly illness. anyway. its just fucking pain to the point that she can't sleep. past night have waited long before to confirm she have dooze off already. get well soon ok? and remember to apply ur medicine regularly. (:
money money money. i have yet another serious problem with money. i think i have fucked up someway back then and now i'm in a shit loads of debt. all critically needed to be return. oh man, i just need to strike a small 4D. lols. have been living on measely save up money this few weeks. even if i need to eat like lets say a dinner at a coffeeshop have to be plan in advance. suck man.
working in banquet is not helping much either. first i have to be bark like a dog. second all those serving and moving things is a load of shit heavy work that i reckon them to employ bangalah instead. Third is the PRC people working attitude there isn't helping much either.
hiaz, miss the days working in bank. although its more mudane and boring. at least there is a steady income pouring in. plus so much incentives.
I WANT TO GET OUT OF MY ECONOMIC MELTDOWN NOW!!! ahhhhhhhhhh.
things that people have commented have made me doubtful of my plan and actions. fucked with that. is it really hard trying to establish a system that graduates come back to support? yes, it might be hard in the past as every single person doesn't seems to return and i could sadly proclaim them dead. i don't ask much. just come down for an events or two. PT would do just fine. come on man, i've seen people in my batch just aka-da-de-bra, poofing off into the air but seriuosly, we know that they are not that busy yet to not even commit 2 hours of their 166hours a week. u've question me on this new system and yet u encourage me to continue to keep up this trend. such an irony. how can i ever let my juniors know that it is perfectly right to come back and help without even me myself helping in it? or rather i said my batch of people. nvm. no use arguing it now. suck.
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nothing to say now. going to work tml at the dog farm again. signing off.
ndshann on 2:20 AM
