Wednesday, May 16, 2007
hi! yay. i can finally login to this stupid thing. Arghhhh. bish. keep jam. dunno what happen also? -.-"today was a fun and tiring day. morning literally jump out of bed cause 8:30 le. then the whole class depend on my components for today test. ok. initially tot it was going to be very super duper easy but oh well. i did all the way till12 and its still not done and everythign was in a freaky mess.
faster escape class and chiong to meet dear. suppose to meet at 11 but. hiaz. sorry dear. ok. then i "hide" at the station for her to find but aiyo. she find me so fast sia. =) ok. then dunno why she wear until quite sexy la. haha. look sweet. heng i wear a long slevee and not shorts sia. >.<
ok, then we went to ps and watch a LOOK-INTRESTING-BUT-ACTUALLY-NO-LINK show known as bridge to terabhita. really no link leh. nothing mythical and fascinating. just some kids imagination. aiyoyo. ok but well. the one beside me was much more intresting. haha. my personal cushhie. so nice to lie on.
then after movie we went to shop. she complain tt i like to browse through shops too much tt i was not focusing on what to buy. haha. from PS walk till centrepoint i think?!? went walk around and so happen tt this flashy orange reebok sports shoe caught her eyes. hmmx. looks nice to me and yepx. she try and she love it and it feel comfortable so she got it =)
yay. new shoes. =D
then i think i've got to go off le. its like ermx quite early but. hiax. i know today go back late surely die one. cause sis flying off to shanghai and yepx. they surely want to eat tgt then hiaz. i dunno. i really feel bad. she's been like tolerating me le ba?
dunno why. i feel tt i myself like quite worthless. i dun have $ right now. sometimes even need to depend on her. my looks is like . . . not tt charming either. my parents is simply a pair of nosey control freaks. and i can't even give her what she want.
hiax.
i'm just . . . SELFISH? or maybe USELESS?
i dunno.
after lasttime the last conflict. our realation seems to improve alot. both of us tend to compromise more for each other. and i feel that she have been compromising more.at times i can't even do a freaking simple thing like pei-ing her to tiong mrt. how useless. she will smile and say to me. nvm its ok la. i've got my mp3 and yepx. she wave and smile with a bye bye but, i just dun feel good. its like i've not done what i should do as a bf.
thinking about last time i've quite a number of regrets ba. the biggest will be the whole of RIC. i really must apologise for what i've deed ba. u're in-deed a very strong girl mentally and physically but i keep assume that you'll be fine. at trainings i didn't really pay much attention to you. i know it hurts when the other part does that. sorry baby. i jsut want to apologise for neclegting you at that point of time. remember yesterday when we talk on the phone. i told u i was done but i think u've said something like i've done a good part as a president and something like that. it really really brighten and cheer up my feelings like . . . wow. yepx. praises from your loves one is something, extra-ordinary.
another regret will be the rambutan thing ba. hmmx. i hould have control myself more. hmmx, thinking about this make me feel quite a retard. hiaz. dun mention about it le la. but i felt quite embaress for that ba. some how make me seems like a total control freak.
i know you've been maybe mad or sad right now? but i know that by asking you what happen your reply will be nothing de. i shan't keep forcing you. you've told me before that if the time comes you will surely tell me de. or else it will be irritaing. but sorry dear. boy really at his wits end. with such parents. hiaz. i really dunno how to make them understand. at times they will sounds like they're willing to compromise but in the end, it falls back to what they want. what the fuck sia.
talking about studies. i've been somehow studying le but what i get from them is like aiya. oneweek only. fuck sia. u all can dun be like this de right? crazy fellow. what makes you think that i come back early i can go university. its how you balance time right? if just come back early can go uni i can straight away tell u i quit rovers evryday go home lo. siao!!! dunno how to think and listen.
dear. love is a two way thing. i'm sorry for being the one blocking our traffic right now. but yepx. promise me that you'll smile more k? simply can't live w/o you. honestly.
*ps i hope tt u'll reply to this or something like tt.
ndshann on 11:13 PM
